A Few Thoughts

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  • The hospital and real life

    The experience in a hospital is real life. It’s life, obviously.  And, it’s not real life, although it may feel like it. I was in the hospital sometimes for stretches of two or three weeks. A couple of times, I was told in advance that I’d be there for about a month. I prepared for…

  • Anything you want (well, not anything…)

    I think I was born a generalist – with a few too many interests. The topics I want to write about range from the deep richness of Buddhist teachings (and implications for everyday living) to tidbits (maybe from experience, maybe from a book or other places) about gardening with native plants, or research on healthy…

  • Remember me? :-)

    Hi, dear friends and friends-to-be, I’m dusting off my blog and getting it ready for a new year of musings and incidental inspirations. It’s been tooooo long! Today, I’m moving my WordPress account to point to budwithunter.com, which should be activated in the next couple of days. In the meantime – I’m a lazy member…

  • April 22

    When there was evil in the world, Fear and uncertainty spread like a virus, A disease of doubt. Depression reigned. The evil was doubt itself–doubt In what every young child Knows, before being Trained otherwise. Doubt That anyone who can Smile, and anyone who can’t, Has a radiant heart beating Wildly to connect, to save.…

  • An environment for waiting

    When I was sick—a generic term I now use for feeling crappy, fatigued, and disconnected—I could barely note the beauty of this place. I couldn’t feel it.

  • Phebe Jewell – fiction

    Originally posted on Bindweed Anthologies: In Line Fourth in the express lane at Safeway, you scan the rows of gossip and gum displayed at eye level. The old man in front of you keeps taking the same piece of paper out of his pocket, reads it aloud, then puts it back in his pocket. A…

  • The long way

    I remember so many days, weeks, months when I dreaded walking the long distances within MD Anderson Cancer Center. Of course, “long” is relative. Weakened by hospitalizations, anemic and breathless, fatigued beyond belief–anything more than a few steps was tiring. A long walkway like this I would avoid like the plague. Now I stop and…

  • Working with our propensities

    “Working with our propensities is a very helpful way to think in terms of “me.” Just think of it as propensity. The propensity to get angry: you explore the energy of anger, and you even want it to come up so that you can know it and be intimate with it. In terms of our…

  • Walking

    After a short night of sleep last night (I’m still on a low dose of Prednisone for a few more days), I finally got myself up and out of the house by lunch time. I headed to W. 19th Street in the Heights and finished some last-minute holiday shopping. Between the Heights and Amazon, I…

  • An Infant Immune System

    I was at MD Anderson this morning for lab tests. I’ve been getting them pretty frequently lately, once or twice a week, while the stem cell team continues to monitor my hemoglobin and creatinine levels. (I’ll write in another post about my adventures over the last six months with hemolysis–hemoglobin breakdown.) After a delightful lunch…